So today is a relatively big day for me, NCSC/J23-wise. Today I have to meet with the Campus Ministers and convince them that being in NCSC is a good thing, that we need to renew our membership, and that they need to continue to receive emails from the NCSC List-Serve (and should be passing them along to student leaders as well). Like I’ve said before, I’m really struggling with needing to have this meeting in the first place, and I’m praying that this is hopefully just an educational moment.
Today they rescheduled on me for the second time. This meeting was supposed to take place last week, then they rescheduled on me the day before (postponing this by a week), and now I got another email today saying that they’re going to push me back 20-30 minutes to have a Alternative Spring Break interview…
Maybe I’m reading into this a little too much, and being a bit too sensitive – but it’s not very respectful to keep jerking me around like this. And what does it say when I want to have this meeting about the NCSC and you reschedule this meeting for other things that are popping up AFTER we scheduled our original time. This makes me realize where I fit in their priorities. I’m kinda pissed I’m being jerked around like this, and I hope this isn’t a preview of what’s to come in today’s meeting.
I’m still about nervous about what’s going to happen. I have a good sense of what I’m going to say and how I’m hoping this will go, but I really hope that all of us can go into this meeting with an open mind. What I really hope is that I don’t need to take a defensive position during this meeting and basically defend against their ignorance and pre-judgement.
The benefit I have is that I have an assured end-result. CSU students will become members no matter what. Our former Pastor, who is now the Pastor of another church about an hour away has offered to cover registration expenses – so I have a last-resort option. I really don’t want to use this though, I think it’ll fix things in the short-term, but in the long-run this won’t be a good thing. It’ll become another way our community is split and I don’t want to build up this "resistance/alternative campus ministry".
So please say a prayer for me today at 4:20ish MST. I’ll update on how things turn out.