Wacko Jacko Fans

Ah!  What a great feeling to sleep in your own bed!  It’s been over a week since I had that experience, so I was grateful to be back at home.  It’s funny how when you go back to your parent’s house it feels more like "home" than any place you’re currently living in at this point – yet you still don’t feel as comfortable there as you do at your own place.  That’s how I’ve felt.  I get to sleep in my own bed, mess up my own bathroom, watch my own TV – the whole works.

But I only get this freedom for four days, and then I’m back in Loveland for the next 10 days, sleeping in my sister’s old room, living out of my suitcase, trying to find ways not to keep the dog from getting out of the gate.  What makes this time more fun is that I’m going to be driving my sister’s Mazda, which is my debut on the stick shift!  Yeah buddy!  I don’t think it’ll be as bad as I’m making it sound, but we’ll see

So after being out of my apartment lask week my Tivo was here to greet me with a whole week’s worth of shows that I’ve missed.  Normally I love my Tivo, it’s one of the coolest inventions of the last years (and I’ll eventually post a little rant about how cool Tivo is), but in this case it kinda sucks.  I’ve now come home to over 20 hours of TV shows that I "love" and need to watch.  It’s funny because I can’t bring myself to delete the hours of Law & Order, Star Trek Deep Space Nine, Family Guy that exist on my Tivo, or the episodes of shows I am trying to get into (Lost, Medium, Numb3rs).  At the same time, I don’t want to sit in front of the TV and watch all of those shows, as I’d end up killing something like 10 hours in front of the TV!  How crappy is that!  So the moral of the story here: Tivo is normally awesome – but if you leave it alone for too long it’ll eventually come back to bite you in the butt!

And of course, yesterday was the verdict of Wacko Jacko, who moonwalked himself right out of the court-room getting off on all ten charges!  I can’t help but say that I was disappointed.  I think in the end, the jury probably did the right thing – they could not prove beyond a reasonable doubt that he did it.  The witnesses were too sketchy, and it’s hard to send someone to the hole for 8 years based on the testimony of grifters.  At the same time, couldn’t the DA and investigators put Jackson away for SOMETHING!?!  The guy is 44 years old and admits sleeping in the same bed as young boys.  He has "parent alarms" in his house to alert him in his bed room.  The guy has an amusement park in his backyard that attracts young kids like flypaper.  You’re telling me you couldn’t find ANYTHING suspicious to deal with that guy?

In all seriousness I do think that Jackson is a serial pedophile and I believe that he is likely to do this again.  I was actually predicting that he would be convicted.  This wasn’t due for my disdain for Jackson, but rather that in a court-case where you have the victim testifying that abuse occured, and you have another victim to corroberate the abuse story (the child of a housekeeper that is now 20-something), and then when you have the accused refusing to take the stand to deny the allegations of the abuse- chances are that the accused would be convicted.

I get frustrated because the message that gets sent out is "If you’re rich, famous (and especially both), you can do pretty much whatever you want".  I don’t think there’s a remedy for this in our justice system – the rich and famous will always be able to drive better cars, eat better food, get the better health care, and have access to better resources  when it comes to the legal system.  I think that’s a necessary consequence of our capitalist society.  I still have faith in justice and believe those who perpetrate justice temporarily will ultimately not be able to escape the consequences of their actions.  Wacko Jacko will be back in the courthouse before we know it, I’m just disappointed that more kids may be have been harmed in the process.

One other thing – how about those losers that were camped outside the courthouse? Now I can understand the family cheering and crying – but why the heck do you have an emotional investment in this case, especially enough of an emotional investment to take any of your time and go stand outside the courthouse?  What kind of relationship do you have with this guy?  You liked his music at one time, so now you have some kind of deep connection with him where you can justify crying about a verdict that in no way impacts you.  At what point in your thought process do you go "Man, MJ – they did that guy wrong.  You know what, we liked his music at one point, and now he needs us!  Honey, pack up the kids and let’s go to Santa Maria to support Jacko!"

Mr & Mrs Smith Sucks

It’s been a few days since I’ve written here, but I wanted to update on a few random thoughts going on in my head (I’ve had a lot of them lately):

First off, this is the last night I’m spending in my parent’s house, and starting tomorrow I get to sleep in my own bed again… FOR FOUR DAYS?!?  Yes, I’ve ended my one-week house-sitting/babysitting stint (rather successfully I might add), only to be back here on Thursday to be staying here for another 10 days.  Ugh!!  I’m really missing my own place.  I enjoy being back at home and spending more time with my youngest sister, but at the same time I miss having MY own space, MY bed and all that other jazz.  Plus everything I’ve done this week is in Fort Collins, so it really sucks to have to drive an extra 20 minutes to be able to get to bed and sleep.

I got to go to the drive in last night with Bethany.  We had a really good time, but ended up seeing one really crappy movie.  Mr. & Mrs Smith – just skip it.  You don’t want to waste two hours of your life.  There were some pretty decent action scenes, but there was ABSOLUTELY NO PLOT, and furthermore the dialog sucked.  I’m not really an Angelina Jolie fan to begin with, and Brad Pitt – he’s just not what he used to be.  It seems like every Brad Pitt movie I’ve seen lately he’s played the role of Brad Pitt more than the character he’s supposed to be playing (if that makes sense).  I just really can’t see past his personality into the story.  The movie was pretty cliché too, so yeah go ahead and save your money.

Overall this weekend has been good so far – pretty restful (which also means pretty lazy).  I had a drumset accident this morning.  I was pulling the cart out of my apartment door (and it goes down a VERY small step) when the cart lost balance and fell forward.  I had two plastic tubs with my drum hardware, and one of them was so heavy that the fall forward split the container right open!  I was pretty surprised, but also pretty pissed.  I guess it’s easy to forget just how heavy drum hardware can be!

Well Sunday’s going to be a fun day, my sister and I need to clean up the house and find somewhere to hide the keg before we go pick my mom up from the airport!  Then begins my four days of domestic and vehicular freedom before I give up my apartment and my car for ten days!

Babysitting Frustrations

Just a few random thoughts at the end of a long Thursday:

1. I ended up having to wait up for my sister tonight.  I’m kinda pissed at her too.  Last night we made plans for me to take her to dinner after I got off work today.  I felt bad because even though I’m technically responsible for her this week, I haven’t really spent as much time with her as I should be.  So I wanted to take her out.  So I come straight home after work today only to find that she wasn’t here.  I waited around all evening, but she never showed up.  She finally called me around 10pm, and came home around 11:30pm, but she totally forgot our dinner plans.  So I wasn’t very happy, especially with the fact that I came home and didn’t know where she was.

2.  I had another reason for going straight to Loveland after work rather than back to my place for a while – mowing the lawn.  Before my mom left for Orlando she asked me if I could have the lawn mowed by the time she’d get back.  Normally this wouldn’t be a big deal at all, except that the grass hasn’t been mowed for two weeks.  Typically our lawn needs to be mowed every three days, so you can imagine what two weeks of not mowing does to the lawn!  So it’s been a daunting task that I’ve been putting off all throughout this week.  But tonight was going to be different – I was going to go take my sister to dinner, come back and tackle the front yard and half of the back yard.  But as soon as I got home it began to rain here, and pretty heavy.  It ended up raining a good few hours here, so no way to mow the lawn tonight.

3.  So with no dinner plans and not being able to mow the lawn, I was relegated to seeing what was on Thursday Night TV.  I ended up watching Game 1 of the NBA Finals!  Talk about a low-scoring game!  I guess that’s what we should expect being that the #1 defense is playing the #2 defense, but would it kill someone on either team to light it up?  The game was decently exciting, but as a fan of high-scoring pizazz this left me pretty unsatisfied.  Also I hate to say it, but it looks like Detroit *choked*!  There I said it.  Geez, how the heck could they give up a 17-4 lead in the first quarter at one point fall 16 points behind San Antonio and ultimately lost 84-69.  Ugh! This series is going to be ugly!

I’m so glad tomorrow’s Friday.  I’m excited to wrap up an extra project I’m working on, then I’m headed to the drive-in

Wonderful Dinner

Today turned out to be a great day!

First off, as I am writing this I am sitting my parent’s living room waiting up for my sister.  This week I’ve been sleeping over at my parent’s in Loveland, while my mom is in Orlando taking a well-deserved vacation.  So to help the family out I am house-sitting here and taking care of my 16-year-old sister.  I’m still trying to keep her out of trouble  . In all seriousness she is really responsible.  Yes she’s been staying out late, but she’s always calling me letting me know where she’s at, who she’s with and when I can expect her home.  When I drop a curfew on her she’s been home at that time so as far as younger sisters go she’s being great!  Right now she is coming home from the Kenny Chesney concert, so I am being a good big brother and waiting up for her.

Work today turned out to be pretty hectic, but also pretty fun. It was hectic because I ended up spending over 7 hours on the phone and we ended up having to do a few installs with one of them failing.  We ended up going home for the day not knowing what exactly has caused our problem, or how we can fix it.  This does not bode well for our decision in choosing to adopt this upgrade into our current migration efforts.

It also turned out to be pretty good because I managed to cut through a lot of my tasks like a hot knife through butter and get everything done.  I’m at a poitn where I’m looking for work to do – it feels great!  It was also funny because as these installs were going on we ended up with a lot of down-time which gave me a chance to have some good conversations with my co-workers.  We talked about everything fromt pets to wines to retirement accounts and social security.  It was pretty interesting and turned out to be time well-spent.

I had a great dinner + dessert tonight.  I got to make dinner for a really amazing girl, and then we went up to Horsetooth to enjoy dessert while watching the sun set over the reservoir.  It turned out to be an awesome night, and I found out I’m not such a bad cook after all.

Pastoral Council Doubts

Interesting night tonight..  Not really quite sure just how I feel right now.

Tonight I had a Pastoral Council meeting at my church.  These are monthly meetings held on the 1st Monday, and it seems that whenever Pastoral Council Monday rolls around it really zaps the energy out of me.

First of all, I’m chairperson of the Pastoral Council, and while it sounds pretty cool and important, this is really something that I reluctantly accepted.  Believe it or not, I’m the only 3rd year member on there (Pastoral Council members are term-limited to 3 years at my church), and we had a chairperson throughout the first-half of the year but she had to resign because she was going back to school in Denver and her classes were taking up all of her time, so I as the Vice/Co-Chair reluctantly accepted the position.  I even tried to back-pedal out of it when they offered it to me, talking about how I’m not sure if a student should be chair of the Pastoral Council, how I don’t have a lot of time and so-forth, but it still got thrust upon me unfortunately.  So I’ve been trying to make an honest effort out of it, but truth be told I’m not really passionate about the inter-politics & (lack of good) decision making at my church that’s been going on for the last years.  And then when it’s time to get something done for the PC I’ve had the hard time making any time for it.  I feel bad because I’m not giving the group a real honest effort, but at the same time my heart’s not really into it…  It’s just one of those things.

The meeting went pretty well, it flowed alright and I tried to keep people somewhat on topic, but again it’s hard hearing some of the things at those meetings.  It goes back to some of the struggles I blogged about back on May 12th – decisions about how they are (not) going to replace the Director of Campus Ministry position and all of that crap.  When it got rehashed again it really made me upset.

At the end of nights like these I ask myself "Why am I still going to these meetings?"  I’m really not getting anything out of it.  I don’t really I’m making any valuable contributions.  Do I really need to be here?  Then I am reminded of a column that I read back in 2003, from Ron Rolheiser, a very wise priest that was called "Pentecost Happened at a Meeting".  In his column, he reminds us:

"Pentecost happened at meeting and it happened to a community, to a church congregation assembled for prayer, to a family of faith gathered to wait for God’s guidance. Moreover it happened in a common room, a meeting room, in one of those humble, church- basement, type of rooms. It can be helpful to remember that."

He ends the column by saying that "When you don’t know what else to do, keep going to meetings."  So I will keep doing that.  I know that there’s a reason I should be at these meetings.  What it is, I have no idea, but I will still hold that faith…  But I still can’t help but wonder "Why me?"